Yep...I bombed my weigh in this morning! I didn't gain, but I didn't lose either. On the other hand my hubby lost another 5 lbs...how is that even fair? And yes I am jealous of his success, and the green eyed monster of jealousy has risen it's ugly head. It's my own fault for not losing anything this week, all I have to do is look back at the last four days and I can see what went wrong.
It still pisses me off though, I have a huge trip in two weeks and wanted to at least lose ten pounds before I left. It may still happen but I am pretty sure it's gonna suck trying! I have been so sick with a head and chest cold, it's hard to breath, and working out is nearly impossible. Yes, another excuse, but a valid one at least.
So from here I will try to buckle back down and get it together! Now if I can get the family drama to subside I think that will help too. Seriously who the hell needs to watch TV when you have my family??!! Between my in laws and my immediate family, I have my hands full with lies, broken hearts, and more...Oooffda!
That's all I got on my mind for now, ta-ta!
Oh and go check out the FABULOUS recipe blog I found....Gina Rocks!!!
www.skinnytaste.com
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Sunday, February 20, 2011
Social Gathering Slip Up
Oh the sorrow I feel after the fact....
I attended a social gathering for a friends birthday over the weekend and what a mess I made of my diet! I totally went over board and boy do I regret it today. I was doing alright and staying away from the BAD snacks, until the cocktails were flowing a little too freely. I found myself standing in the kitchen dipping tortilla chips on a crock pot of chili cheese dip, oh and lets not forget the cocktail wieners wrapped in crescent rolls! Damn it!!!
I blew the whole week in one four hour period! What the hell was I thinking?? Oh yea, I wasn't! So now I feel guilty as all hell, and am trying to get myself out of the "self bashing" mode and fix my mistake. Why do I keep doing this to myself? I know better and was fully prepared to behave...but when faced with the challenge I fail miserably.
Is this the life I am doomed to have? Are these the choices I will constantly have to battle? The answer is a resounding YES...but the key is to LEARN from my missteps and conquer the battles the right way. I am a smart gal, it shouldn't have to be this hard, I make it that way because I don't stop to think. So, now I have to find my triggers, what are the things that make me want to eat these obviously bad things? I know already that I am an emotional eater, but I am not always motivated by emotions. What are the other triggers? That is my next step in this process of losing weight and finding myself again.
Self awareness has always been hard for me, so this should prove to be a very difficult point to deal with. I feel lost a lot of the time, like I am not quite sure who I really am deep down inside. I feel like I don't have a niche, or a specific place that I fall into. I wear the roles that are mine, wife, mother, friend, sister... but WHO am I besides those roles? Here is where I start my digging, lets hope the hole isn't too deep, or this could take a while.
Well, this is where I leave it today. Back on track and staying positive is my goal for the next few days. I have weight check in two days, so I really have to stay on track...here's hoping I didn't gain thanks to my slip up!
I attended a social gathering for a friends birthday over the weekend and what a mess I made of my diet! I totally went over board and boy do I regret it today. I was doing alright and staying away from the BAD snacks, until the cocktails were flowing a little too freely. I found myself standing in the kitchen dipping tortilla chips on a crock pot of chili cheese dip, oh and lets not forget the cocktail wieners wrapped in crescent rolls! Damn it!!!
I blew the whole week in one four hour period! What the hell was I thinking?? Oh yea, I wasn't! So now I feel guilty as all hell, and am trying to get myself out of the "self bashing" mode and fix my mistake. Why do I keep doing this to myself? I know better and was fully prepared to behave...but when faced with the challenge I fail miserably.
Is this the life I am doomed to have? Are these the choices I will constantly have to battle? The answer is a resounding YES...but the key is to LEARN from my missteps and conquer the battles the right way. I am a smart gal, it shouldn't have to be this hard, I make it that way because I don't stop to think. So, now I have to find my triggers, what are the things that make me want to eat these obviously bad things? I know already that I am an emotional eater, but I am not always motivated by emotions. What are the other triggers? That is my next step in this process of losing weight and finding myself again.
Self awareness has always been hard for me, so this should prove to be a very difficult point to deal with. I feel lost a lot of the time, like I am not quite sure who I really am deep down inside. I feel like I don't have a niche, or a specific place that I fall into. I wear the roles that are mine, wife, mother, friend, sister... but WHO am I besides those roles? Here is where I start my digging, lets hope the hole isn't too deep, or this could take a while.
Well, this is where I leave it today. Back on track and staying positive is my goal for the next few days. I have weight check in two days, so I really have to stay on track...here's hoping I didn't gain thanks to my slip up!
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
My Angels/Devils
These are my beautiful daughters, they my biggest motivators!
Hannah - 2yrs old
Nikki - 15yrs old
Finally Got It Together...
I have finally got my act together and started my weight loss program...took me long enough! I have all sorts of "reasons" I didn't start sooner, but of corse they are all B.S. Finding motivation lately has been difficult and tiresome. I'm not quite sure if it's just because I am scared to fail or if it's because I am scared to change. I think it's both to be brutally honest. HA...brutally honest...yep, thats me in a nut shell.
Life has been hectic with my kids lately, the both of them have been sick a lot this winter, and now my oldest has to have surgery. It's minor, but still worrisome to me. And that is another "reason", am I good at making excuses or what?! Luckily, I have the greatest husband ever who is willing to take this journey yet again with me. And this time he is a participant!!
His employer has started a "pound for pound" challenge, where for every pound lost by their employees the company donates the equal amount in pounds of food donated to local food shelves. My husband came up with the idea that he would join the challenge at work, and I can do it right along side. My weight loss doesn't count toward his employers donation, but it's nice to have a helping hand along my way. Especially since it's a hand that I have held through thick and thin for 15 years.
Well, we completed week #1 this morning and I am proud to announce that I lost 4 pounds and my hubby lost 6.5! I am so very proud of our accomplishment! Although the grocery budget has expanded to rediculous amounts, it's going to be worth every penny to see the pounds come off. Now all I have to do is stay motivated and positive, which is the hardest part of any endeavor I seem to take on. I've lost weight before, and with great success...but I've also given up and gained it all back too.
So, we start week #2 a few pounds lighter and a little healthier...now what? Well, I have been researching different websites for low fat, high fiber recipes that loosely mirror Weight Watchers points system. I did find a great one in my googling and binging for recipes that don't conjur the taste the cardboard at the mere reading of them, Gina's Skinny Recipes Blog www.skinnytaste.com, is a winner in my book. I have already made a few of her recipes and they were FANTASTIC! I'm already following her on FaceBook as well :) Go check out Gina's blog and discover some YUMMY food...I recommend her recipe for Sweet Barbacoa Pork...it was delightfully awesome and the whole faily loved it. http://www.skinnytaste.com/2011/01/slow-cooked-sweet-barbacoa-pork.html
Well, it's been fun but that's about all I have for this week...stay tuned for future post's
Life has been hectic with my kids lately, the both of them have been sick a lot this winter, and now my oldest has to have surgery. It's minor, but still worrisome to me. And that is another "reason", am I good at making excuses or what?! Luckily, I have the greatest husband ever who is willing to take this journey yet again with me. And this time he is a participant!!
His employer has started a "pound for pound" challenge, where for every pound lost by their employees the company donates the equal amount in pounds of food donated to local food shelves. My husband came up with the idea that he would join the challenge at work, and I can do it right along side. My weight loss doesn't count toward his employers donation, but it's nice to have a helping hand along my way. Especially since it's a hand that I have held through thick and thin for 15 years.
Well, we completed week #1 this morning and I am proud to announce that I lost 4 pounds and my hubby lost 6.5! I am so very proud of our accomplishment! Although the grocery budget has expanded to rediculous amounts, it's going to be worth every penny to see the pounds come off. Now all I have to do is stay motivated and positive, which is the hardest part of any endeavor I seem to take on. I've lost weight before, and with great success...but I've also given up and gained it all back too.
So, we start week #2 a few pounds lighter and a little healthier...now what? Well, I have been researching different websites for low fat, high fiber recipes that loosely mirror Weight Watchers points system. I did find a great one in my googling and binging for recipes that don't conjur the taste the cardboard at the mere reading of them, Gina's Skinny Recipes Blog www.skinnytaste.com, is a winner in my book. I have already made a few of her recipes and they were FANTASTIC! I'm already following her on FaceBook as well :) Go check out Gina's blog and discover some YUMMY food...I recommend her recipe for Sweet Barbacoa Pork...it was delightfully awesome and the whole faily loved it. http://www.skinnytaste.com/2011/01/slow-cooked-sweet-barbacoa-pork.html
Well, it's been fun but that's about all I have for this week...stay tuned for future post's
Monday, October 25, 2010
My First Post!
Well, here it is...my very own blog! I am pretty excited to get started on this, and hope to start seeing my accomplishments unfold in print! I decided to start writting this because I need an outlet for my thoughts and feelings on my latest weightloss venture. Let me give you a little back ground on what that means...
As I write this I am 33 years old, a mother of three, and been with the same wonderful guy for 15 years! My kids and my hubby are my life, my breath, and my heart. The reason I do all this is for them...so they have a mama and wifey for many years to come.
I've never been a thin girl, even growing up I was always a bit "chunky". But my big gains came with the birth of my girls...Nik is 14 years old and Hannah is 18 months old, yep BIG age gap there..whoopsie! But I'll save that story for another post.
I started out at 18 years old weighing 150lbs. Now 14 years later, two babies, and a marriage, I am topling the scale at 236lbs. *sigh* As I typed that number I wanted to cry, what have I done to myself?! I really have let it all go, and stopped focusing on myself haven't I?! Well it's high time for me to get myself back to healthy and happy, for myself and for my family.
So, at the end of each weekly blog post I'll be listing my "numbers"...where I started, where I weighed in that week, gain or loss, and my goal. My first set of numbers is the most important, as I have to set that first ever so important goal!!
Wish me luck, cause here goes nothing.
Start- 236 - 10/25/10
This Week-
Goal: 10% loss
As I write this I am 33 years old, a mother of three, and been with the same wonderful guy for 15 years! My kids and my hubby are my life, my breath, and my heart. The reason I do all this is for them...so they have a mama and wifey for many years to come.
I've never been a thin girl, even growing up I was always a bit "chunky". But my big gains came with the birth of my girls...Nik is 14 years old and Hannah is 18 months old, yep BIG age gap there..whoopsie! But I'll save that story for another post.
I started out at 18 years old weighing 150lbs. Now 14 years later, two babies, and a marriage, I am topling the scale at 236lbs. *sigh* As I typed that number I wanted to cry, what have I done to myself?! I really have let it all go, and stopped focusing on myself haven't I?! Well it's high time for me to get myself back to healthy and happy, for myself and for my family.
So, at the end of each weekly blog post I'll be listing my "numbers"...where I started, where I weighed in that week, gain or loss, and my goal. My first set of numbers is the most important, as I have to set that first ever so important goal!!
Wish me luck, cause here goes nothing.
Start- 236 - 10/25/10
This Week-
Goal: 10% loss
"That which does not kill me, only makes me more insane!"
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